Home.

Well on tuesday it'll be one week since I've been home. So far it's been going great, and Papa's been blessing me heaps, My family, my snowboarding and skating, my friends, I'm so glad that I wasn't forgotten and that God has shown me that now this is where I'm supposed to be. Finally for the first time I don't mind the rain, I have options on what to do and where to go to skate [indoor parks all being open now (closest being bellevue)] Today at church my senior pastor asked if I would share my 6 month story to the congregation in the next few weeks, as well as talk to the youth group and how I can get more involved with the church. I'm really excited about this oppertunity because God has done SO much in me the last 6 months that the only way I can describe it (as how I did to my mom) was "I feel soooo clean. So renewed. Like a different person" I don't know how to explain it other then since I have found my identity in Christ, or like had a mental change haha and I have gone through all the healing Papa sent me to YWAM for..Iam new.

Today at church Pastor Jeff began a series to go through the ten commandments like how I learned at school. It was really cool to be able to know and understand what he was teaching and be able to elaborate on it in thinking. It really made me think again about what I've learned the last six months, Since I've been home I've felt like placed back into reality. At first I was in a culture shock, coming back to how Americans talked and how out going we are here. Where as in Byron people are more laid back and mellow. Very friendly but not so I guess harsh or bold as we are here. Already met a few new people since I've been home and I've had to remember what It's like to be I guess "back home" I am so much stronger in not only my relationship with God, but with my morals and guidelines I've set up for myself. Like I've mentioned in other blogs how purity is hugely important to me I dont want to do anything to compermise anything other then the best God has for me. I wont settle for "less" I'm excited to see what God has for my in the future I know that right now I need to focus on myself and my goals the I have just for now.

Anyways I have heaps of reading and praying to do tonight, what jobs God wants me to apply for or do, friendships to keep and persue that will benefit my relationship with God and only grow me more towards Him and friendships to let go, What ministry age God want's me to work with and how or who and what. [how to get my iPhone unlocked and fixed...] anyways the only way I can explain my feelings right now on a few other subjects are from a song I sang home on the radio after skating "Your Grace is Enough" so Papa God. Thank you that you love me no matter what, that I don't have to worry about anyone elses approval and I just can keep my eyes and heart focused on you so that my heart doesn't get broken elsewhere and I can remember that at the end of the day Your Grace is Enough and You are all I need.

Papa please reveal yourself to me...

SO I know the reason why I wasn't supposed to go to Bali. It was for this beautiful precious girl named Jade in Bondi Beach Australia :) about two weeks ago now Jade came to the point where she wanted Jesus in her life. She wanted to finally feel God and know who he was. So I was blessed with the oppertunity to lead her in that.

Well two weeks after heaps of praying and chatting about things I've finally arrived in Bondi Beach. It's so exciting to see her passion and her eagerness to feel and learn more about God. It's like shes thirsty for it and I'm able to help her find the tap to fill her life :)

Well last night after we got home from skating Jade started asking me more about Papa. She wanted to feel Him and like see a sign from God. So we were sitting on her bed in the complete dark because it was late, and we prayed and asked for God to give us a sign that He was with us :) Jade said she started feeling warmth next to her and I acknowledged that as Jesus sitting next to her :) because God brings warmth.

Well it was so crazy, all of a sudden from head to toe I got like crazy goosebumps and kinda jumped because it like surprised me! and at the same time I jump Jade saw this light. We both kinda were surprised and she wanted even more so we asked for God to show us that it was really from Him.

Well Jade got this verse in Matthew pop up in her head, and it happened to be about God being a light in the darkness! It was sooo crazy!!

Starting a relationship with God-
One way I've really learned how to hears Gods voice is just by asking Him what He wants to say to me :) I started out with just asking "Papa I want to know you more, please give me verses of encouragement today or give me a word showing me that you love me" Usually I would get verses from Psalms or other random books in the new testiment. Sometimes God tested me to see how much I trusted him haha sometimes the verses didnt even exist but I kept asking until I got one that made sence :)

As I've grown closer over the last six months I've changed my prayer on Papa please encourage me and show me your love to Ok Dad what do you want to teach me today? Which is where Job and 1st Kings have come into play. He's taught me heaps already with some old testiment books, but it's like he had to prepare me for that because usually I wouldn't know how to take it or understand it. But Since I've gotten the Message//remix Bible I've been able to understand everything! As written as a letter [message] from God [papa] to us [his children] and then as the view of a person. Not any of that "thou so art holy" its "God understands and loves you for who you are"

After I went out of her room and too bed, [I gave Jade her first bible last night she's never read it nor did she know any of the books in it] and Timithy 2 came up in her head so she goes to check her bible, and the verse that God gave her was along the lines of using the gifts God's blessed her with and to not sit in the past but to move towards the future. How is that for God speaking? Esspecially to a 17 year old girl in grade 12. Who's just gone through a hectic break up as well. How good is Papa for encouragement.

Thanks Papa for revealing yourself to us [your children] All we had to do was open our hearts and ask you to come in and speak to us and there you were Faithful to your word in showing us we can trust you. :)

dude. God.Is.Good.
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